i always look forward to going home, to rest, to have my peace, even if i seldom share what is going on in my life (be it in sch or work) to my family or friends. i know im quiet, but that is the way u guys brought me up to. u guys never share since young. im not saying these are all your fault, but this is the way i was brought up.

today u asked me to copy down a foreign number without any purpose. i checked where the number was from, because u asked me to albeit with a little reluctance because why? i dun want another problem to surface again in the family. im tired of all of it even though u all always say, these are problem we shouldnt worry about because we are still young. but, how can this ever happen?

i want so much to treasure u guys, and im working so hard to give u guys a good life after i graduate because why? i dun want to regret not treasuring u guys when u guys are still alive. i dun want what happened to my friend, to happen here as well.

pls remember, i will reciprocate.. not like i dun.

it’s just like how u can be so jovial infront of other people, but not to us. and i wonder why.. is it biasness? im really clueless.

sometimes i think i really am a buddha already, to let go and forgive no matter how bad i am insulted or accused.

i want to live life the way i want because i nv have had a chance to do that when i was young.. and because im still young now, i want to learn those things i never had a chance to learn last time. i want to treasure the time i have now, to have a little childhood i always wanted. and this is why im working so hard for..

Papers these days haven’t been friendly at all. And I’m indeed struggling.. but yoga therapy and hatha made me feel so much better after another trauma yesterday! I will give a review on the classes I’ve went so far in days to come! Look out for it!

Here’re pictures of muffin when he disturb me on my bed. Oh no.. I hear him dreaming now!

I hope luck is on its way here. I need it BADLY.

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My days have been hectic and stressful recently due to the preparation of exam and I seriously can’t wait for all of these to be over. And frankly speaking, I’m no longer pinning hopes on getting good grades this sem because I simply can’t. That is an excuse that simply cannot be forgiven, but u’ll know why if u’ve gone through the same thing as me. And I finally broke down…

But friends, no matter what I’ll still go on even with the most disastrous grades in my life. (for I see no engineer in myself in future) I can simply slap myself for saying this. Yes. You too if u want but I can’t help it.

Note that I’m getting into my stubborn oldself while writing this post. It’s an angry one too btw. Rarr…!!! Damn all these.